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Self Portrait: Pain + Waiting for the Future

Pain + Waiting for the Future I don’t much feel this way now almost a year ago I was put out of my misery and given a second (ninth?) […]

Digital Art

Poetry: The Shining Darkness

Now I lay me down tonight To wait for demons to gouge my eyes And pry from me my inward dreams And rob my shell of fractured sleep I’ll drift […]

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A Short Poem: The Recovery Game

POETRY + REAL LIFE STORIES

Poetry: To be real

POETRY + REAL LIFE STORIES

poetry: insomnia #3

Yep, my old nemesis Insomnia. I feel like a zombie. I’ve been undergoing a year+ of prescription medication withdrawal (for chronic pain & related depression)… this is the last drug. […]

POETRY + REAL LIFE STORIES

poetry: better times

crazy times those were some wavy lines when I look back down the road and reflect I now wonder how I pulled off such a scheme when there wasn’t a […]

POETRY + REAL LIFE STORIES

Poetry: party talk

there’s a lot to the story, if you haven’t heard you can’t leave just now, the facts are absurd quickly i start, yet not used to relating freed words assault […]

POETRY + REAL LIFE STORIES

just another poem about addiction: power play

Breaking the chains of unbreakable force Dissolving the past to chart a new course Stopping an insanely pumping machine For those with insurance and the American dream Shades pulled low […]

POETRY + REAL LIFE STORIES

Poetry: watching the dawn

Watching the dawn of suffering shades Too early to enter the day Pounding blood’s drowning out my name Night’s terrors still lodged in my brain Forcing bland smiles to fake […]

POETRY + REAL LIFE STORIES

Poetry: fools

Common sense stared then darted away Challenging my character’s reason Running from a tangled-up space Reality committing truth treason Brainwaves engaged and ricocheted Like a […]

POETRY + REAL LIFE STORIES

Poetry + Reason: finally fallen

intro . . . This is a true story based on my second night of in-patient detox to rid my body and brain of opiate pain killers. Someone from the […]

Digital Art

Poetry: energy ended

ENERGY ENDED Energy ended, it bended, it broke Leaving long shadows, casting shards down my throat Daring it, sharing it, swallowing shame Dreaming on edges and summoned to stay […]

POETRY + REAL LIFE STORIES

More poetry about detox: down the hall

{this is about my time in the detox ward of a hospital in November, 2013 and the misery associated with withdrawal from opiates – “down the hall” from my room […]

POETRY + REAL LIFE STORIES

POETRY: the night

Waiting for the night to take me My body stiffens, strains and cries (I really hurt, but I must try) To flee my world and through brave eyes Just wait […]